April 28

Met with Pauloa today. I am not sure about her. She was tired exhausted and was out sic for two days. I asked her how she was and what she did in ail. She told methat she prepared peolefor prison who kil their children. Thisonly lead to a name that crossed my lps Sanchez. ? This women threw two children off a bridge and one died. You could hear the husband's testimony during sentencing as he had absolutely no compassion for his wife. He sounded like an abuser, one had an ecky feeling to him when he was speaking. You knew their was more to the story than you were hearing. She pleaded guilty and recieved a 35 year sentence with no credit for time served for good behavior. I guess she would be 60 something when she got out. Of course the media did not say she was avoiding the deat penalty or maybe she decided to give up mankind and rot in a hole because thats all she could feel.

I beleive Paula spent the weekend with this women and "helped her prepare to go jail. Most people do not know that Mult. county jail is a locked down facility. And if your defiant like me, you might get out of your monkey cage 15-30minutes per day. No window or air flowing, lights on 24 hours, and the guards making constant rounds tapping on your door making sure you have not killed yourself yet. So to go to prison is what most inmates want verses staying in jail. So Paula prepared her to go to jail, I know what she did and that was she listened to her story. Thats all anyone wants. As she is sitting in her cell, languishing about every second that passed where she did not say, stop all this, I will fight back.

Paula states, " I am tired of seeing women going to jail for domestic violence.... I guess she is right. One hears about these tragic family murders every Oregon winter and one has to think that the system for one getting help failed. If one has mental illness, their is nowhere to go. I want to hear this womens story I want to write her story and I will find her in jail and maybe she would want to communicate and tell her story.

I am shock about our society, oregon, I have no other place to go.

Lee
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